Call it what you want

While everyone's been busy couped up in the libraries, or just at home in bed with warm soups and tea and what nots to battle the cold weather... I've been living the busy life of a medical student. oh yes, I feel like I can justify myself although I do know that there are other people who are working way harder than I am, like the people who are part of the working community, the construction workers that work on the floor below mine report to work at 6am... oh yes. they definitely start early and joyfully. they sing and turn up the radio while they work in the mornings, but i guess it just sucks when you're living right above that and you need that 2h worth of extra sleep before your day actually starts. Oh well. So anyway, back to the point- I meant that while everyone's been busy, I've been busy too. Just going about uni, stuck in the medical building and also going about a healthy balanced lifestyle. Well, I'd like to think that I do. I mean... for every intense hour of studying.. shouldn't there be a reward of watching some great stress-relieving Korean variety shows? oh but yes,... I have been busy. I'm just figuring out what's the right balance. hehe. 1:1? 1:2? hurhurhur

So for most of the university, everyone's on SWOT VAC. But guess what? Med students don't get that privilege. surprise surprise! We still have an exam at the REB, technically its considered an MST, and we have an OSCE test the day before the test. oh, and we still have classes to boot. Anyway, "what are all those abbreviations?" you might ask.. well, its called a mid semester test, because our subject is a year long one. But it's still essentially an exam. the amount to study is massive, and way more than the first MST. And OSCE however, is actually an Objective Structured Clinical Examination. The link leads you to the wiki page about it. Yeap, its basically just us doing some clinical exams in front of an invigilator, and boy oh boy. Its gonna be nerve wrecking. 

You know what, sometimes you just gotta take whats in front of you in bite sizes. I think the next few days are going to be just as crazy as the last few ones, if not worse. I wonder how I'll turn out at the end of the year. The last 3-4 months have felt like a year. Thankfully I don't feel burnt out, but I do need a holiday. ASAP. really. or some nice hot guy that captures my attention and that'll stop me from complaining. hurhurhur. But on a serious note, its really by God's grace that I've made it this far. Honestly, I didn't think I'd last. Med school seems to be growing on me.. its got a lot of unique people, personalities and craziness that just keeps me interested. Yes, I do want to share all these juicy stories, but you know what, they're really not for the www. 

Yeah. confidentiality FTW.

ps: I know there are a lot of punctuation mistakes and sentence structure errors, but please, cut me some slack. I'm really exhausted. I had a long day. yes... I'm tired. 

tucked in with a warm cup of tea.

Well, it seems to me that time has been passing by too quickly and I haven't had the time to blog. In fact, I have been catching up with friends and meeting new people. Its been pretty exciting. I have been learning so much- more so about other people than about the way the human body works, which is in fact something that i am working on improving at the moment. It has been a long 5 months and I can't believe that this year is just passing by so quickly. But winter is drawing near and I am sure I'll be staying in at home a whole lot more, so watch out. I'll be blogging a lot more with happy snippets of joy to share with the rest of the world. till then...

xoxo,
yes, i'm signing off this post in gossip girl fashion. 

Super-moon.

Apparently there's going to be a super moon tonight. The moon is especially close to earth today, and at about 12am tonight the moon would appear as its largest. I guess I'll be gazing out of my window a lot tonight. The cosmos are so amazing. its just so intriguing.

These last few days have been so hectic, things have been starting to weigh down and i feel increasingly unable to control everything around me... So many things have just been breaking down, but I guess I've been handling it all pretty well so far. Nah, its not so serious, but its just that it feels like its all happening at once. But yet I constantly see God's grace amidst all this craziness. I need to glorify him, because he's really saved me so many times whenever i hit panic mode. i'll get to that soon.

Today was a good day to hit the pause button and troubleshoot all the things that have been going wrong. It was hard to hit pause. It stopped me from going to soccer and dinner, but I guess I reaaaaally needed to do so. SIGH. but oh wells. i managed to1) get some rest, for my lethargy 2) repair the U shaped pipe under my sink that's a bit loose. I need some of that stretchy tape from S, 3) clear out the burnt smell from my failed chocolate pudding from yesterday and 4) clear out all the laundry that needed to be done (because i couldn't do it midweek as the builders came in and out of the apartment.. to rectify problem 5) sigh. 5) clear out the damp musky doggy kind of smell that was due to a wet carpet (now dried)- there was a leak in the shower floor/wall that seeped into the carpet last monday and the builders took all week last week to help me rectify that.

So back to glorifying God amidst all this mess. When I discovered the soggy carpet on monday evening, I was so lucky to have had all the right people at the right time then and there. coincidence? yes. but man, they were all the right people that I needed. Managed to call Ian to come help me out and source out the problem, to check and see if there was anything I could do first. I then found the building manager, who quickly then passed me on to the manager for zen's building works who was just at the lift lobby there and then. (seriously, they should've been headed home already, its was 6pm+). The guys gave me advice and quickly had a plan, which was seriously so reassuring. Honestly I wouldn't have discovered the soggy carpet if I had not been trying to look for a scarf and thankfully the day before (ie last sunday) i took a sweet short 5 min nap at that corner (just because i can, yes don't judge me, i slept in front of the wardrobe cause i was dead tired before heading to soccer) and so i knew that it was definitely dry the day before. Otherwise I wouldn't have noticed it at all. (its a corner that I hardly 'go to'.) haha!

It may all be coincidences, but seriously, it was too good an 'accident' in my own opinion to have happened as such. I thank God, for keeping me calm enough through the whole thing, and bringing the right people in.. even though in my head i was thinking "oh shit oh shit oh shit". hahahaha God's grace was just there throughout the whole thing, even in the midst of my panic yesterday too.. when my chocolate pudding failed TTM at the last minute and smoked up the apartment real bad. (doesn't help that it was dark chocolate- i really don't like that smell. maybe i should've burnt milk chocolate instead. hur hur hur.) Joong Ki came to the rescue its nice to have a man in the house lol- managed to fan the smoke out and stop the smoke alarm from going off for really long, and kel was just so gracious to wait patiently in the car while i handled the crazy upstairs.

His grace has kept me from flooding knee deep in water, getting burned down by my failed chocolate pudding and kept great people around me who have really given me advice, supported and were really patient with me- even putting up with my constant complaints and whining over the past week. I know, I do it a lot- sometimes I even irritate myself. sigh. but hey- to god be the glory! its a simple story, but i think i needed to just share it. 

Sleepy Time

LSD? no, but it's LSG!

Ah, Lee Seung Gi, you're my achilles heel. How can one be so good in singing, acting and hosting variety shows? You're seriously kinda crazy. I never thought much about you when you first started on X-men and just sang your old school ballads... seducing all the noonas. But wow, you've really worked your way up into my list of k-biases,.. oppa! haha! I can't help but fall in love (way past a point of no return) watching all the dramas that you were in... plus when you were in 2D1N and Strong Heart. Sigh.. how? I'm addicted! oh no. 

Jesus or Religion? Jesus and Religion?

Its a really good poem and really lists out many things I get a little frustrated about sometimes. Its good, its really very well written. Its a good thing, I'm glad that our generation is still actively listening and making sure that we're still pointed down on the right track and not just going through the motions/ just living a ritualistic lifestyle. Its a crazy world out there, but I'm glad we're all not alone. I can't believe I've only just come across this video recently, but its a good thought provoker- if you haven't thought about what religion is and what Jesus really stands for, I reccomend that you watch it. Don't just stop there, but go back and read your bible and search for the truths that you're now craving to know about.

Personal thoughts: I do agree with him for the most part, but i personally wouldn't want to segregate religion completely from Jesus because these structures have been put in place for many of us, especially myself where I know I need to have a basic system or order of things to function. I need some sort of structure to keep myself going/self regulate. But its always good to have it in mind that religion and god are two separate things. Religion was made by man to help keep us in check and instill some sort of discipline while god's love is from God and is of God, it cannot be tainted by man. It is forever pure. ...well, that's just my take on things. What about you?

Bad Boy 배드보이

Big Bang's back! I'm glad they're back, especially Daesung! :D I've missed him- ahh. oh well, its nice that they're back and no one wants to think about the tough year the guys had last year. Daesung..., and GD? hmm, well, I hope he's doing better. I don't know if all the fame's poisoned them/him, but they've also had a great great year- the EMAs and gosh, now they're on the grammys website! (today). Sigh, but WOW. (....fantastic baby!) I can't help it, I think everytime I say "wow!", i'm gonna end up finishing it with fantastic baby. hahahaha Bad Boy's a nice song, it feels like they've gone back a little to their "roots" with this, just like when they used to do "We belong together" haha! Its got that same feel to it, since they started off as a R&B kinda group. before they had all their techno-ish and were give the smooth-cold concepts. hmm, back when they were WARM BLOODED...